Month: February 2009

Recently on a fun little questionnaire on Facebook, the question was asked, \”Who do you miss?\” I thought about that, and honestly, after thinking about it, realized I don\’t really miss people and that\’s the response I wrote to the question. Now, let me explain, coz I\’ve already gotten myself in trouble because of that answer. I have extended family that I see maybe twice a year, sometimes three. I love these family members and I\’m always glad to see them. While I don\’t sit around missing them the rest of the times I don\’t see them, I realize when I do see them that I have indeed missed them. And it\’s good to see them and we usually have a good visit.

Some of my family members took exception to the fact that I made that comment. I hope they know that I mean no disrespect to them.

Some of my answer has to do with the fact that my husband and I have lived away from our hometown for most of our married lives. He was in the military when we were first married. Later, he entered the ministry and we moved around a lot. We\’ve only been back in our hometown the last eight years. During that time, we\’ve had the addition of three grandsons into our lives and lots of responsibility with that. We have spent a great deal of time and expended a good bit of energy helping with the needs of these little guys. Add to that the \”sandwich\” lives we lead with aging parents requiring a good bit of our time and attention, and well, I just don\’t miss people.

Besides, if I get to missing someone, I pick up the phone and call them, or I email them, or text them. Modern technology makes it easy to keep up with people, you know?

I fully understand the importance of family. I love my family. I just don\’t miss people. I\’m sorry if that offends.

Someday, i will be a really old woman (if the Lord so wills), and i will be dependent upon people. Because i have a fiercely independent nature, i don\’t think this will be an easy journey for me.

As a matter of fact, I recently got a small taste of having to depend upon other folks. We sold my car to our daughter, leaving us with only one car. So hubby would drop me off and work and come back and get me at the end of the day. I had to get someone to take me to church, the grocery store…. everywhere I wanted to go.

I did not like this.

I\’m used to being able to get in my car and go where I want to go when I want to go. Dave finally did rent a car for me to drive until we got a second vehicle, and I was greatly appreciative. I don\’t really go that many places, but it was just the principle of the thing, you know?

So now we have our two cars again, and I\’m able to get around without having to ask for a ride.

Ahhhhhh.

I needed my husband this evening. It\’s been a stressful day, finding out that my work hours had been cut, which will mean a good bit of belt-tightening for a while. I\’m up for that; we can make it, but I so wish my husband had been here to be with me when I got home. Instead, he was at the hospital sitting with a family whose loved one was in surgery. It\’s what pastors do, and I don\’t begrudge him that one bit, nor do I begrudge the family wanting him there.

It\’s just that every now and then, I miss him. I have to share him with so many people, and sometimes he\’s so drained when he gets home that he doesn\’t really want to talk or interact. He just wants to sit. He\’s a good pastor. He\’s a better husband. He\’s many things to many people.

And sometimes, I just miss him.